"I Am Not That Good" Seminary intro-assignment poem

I Am Not That Good

A piece of my "Introduce Yourself" project for orientation. What sort of writing is it? I don't really know... The title being 'I Am Not That Good"

I am not that good,
I'm a child of God.
And often I would rather not be.

I am sanctified through the profane,
Psalms of Discontent mark the road of my persistent faith
AND
In such a way,
I. Am. Biblical.
Though THAT word makes me cringe.
"Praise Cheesus!"
My "carefree" youth always found a man's observation of grief more compelling than his 'Narnia'

I am one to pray moving forward on my feet,
Arms open and hands working
But then, far be it from me to suggest We speak these days
It's been a long time since I felt I had anything to say
And so to my God who will not be defined:
Allow me a failed attempt to define myself

I.Am.Not.That.Good
But I sure as hell put a fair effort into trying.
Albeit with a more than fair effort into not,

I have disappointed you more times than I can count,
But even you have shouted to yourself, feeling forsaken.

I am, as you have made me,
Full of imperfection, faults, weaknesses, dark ugly corners.
And...
Beauty, confidence, gifts, strengths
And, brief, flashes of brilliant light.

I am my father's daughter,
the annoyance of my brothers,
object of my mother's pride
and her frustration.

Even though I would rather not be
I'm a child of God
and it is probably for that reason, not in spite of it, that
I.AM.NOT.THAT.GOOD